There were a lot of other emotions but these have been the biggest. I am so excited to be a mother again! Having Olivia was life changing. I learned a lot! Then I got pregnant with Walt and I became comfortable with being a mom of one. Then Walt came and things changed but I loved having two children! I am now comfortable with having 2 kids and how well they get along. Now things are about to change again and I am so excited! Being a mother is hard work! It's not for the lazy. I look at pictures of my babies on my wall and get excited to add more pictures.
As I started thinking about sharing the news I started to worry. What will everyone say? I know they will ask how close Walt and this baby will be. They are going to say wow that's really close. But Michael and I spent hours talking about this decision and we feel good about our choice. Olivia and Walter are 20 months apart and Walter and this new baby will be 20 months apart. We will have 3 kids under 3 1/2.
I often feel like I need to explain my decisions (I guess that's why I'm writing this post?) out of excitement about our growing family and to prevent people from judging me. Yes I am 26, yes I am young, yes I stay at home with my children, yes they are really close in age, yes I have my hands full, yes they keep me really busy.
When we made the choice to move to California I started to worry more about what people were going to say and what my reaction would be. I thought of witty responses to rude, unkind, judgmental comments that I knew would come. I heard a lot of my friends tell stories about mean things people said to them about having kids so young. In Idaho it is common and maybe even expected but that is not how things are in California. I remember being teased growing up that my mom and dad were bunnies, baby making machines, 5 kids was too many. It bothered me but I always knew I wanted a big family. I loved always having lots of people around, always having something going on.
After lots of thought about my response to what people will say to me about my family I realized why I am doing this is my response. I love being a mother! I love watching Michael play with OUR children! I love being busy! I love tight squeezes, wet kisses, sweaty sleeping babies, the funny things Olivia says, watching Olivia hug and kiss Walt all day, the way Walt wants to do everything Olivia does. They are the best of friends (and enemies but mostly friends). I love talking to Michael about the kids, taking walks as a family and singing twinkle twinkle little star 10 times. I love how Michael and I feel the same way about our family and our future. Yes, we want 5 kids, maybe we will only have 3 or 4, or maybe we will have 6 but that's the exciting part about being parents and working closely with The Lord to decide on children! We don't have to let anyone else help us decide!! Family is important to me!
I feel blessed that we now live in California and I have only had positive encounters about my children. Every time I am out with the kids everyone who passes us has something to say about Olivia and how she looks like Sherly Temple and how Walt is so happy. They tell me I look busy and I tell them I am but I love it. Michael gets more of the judging than I do. His co-workers can't wrap their brain around the fact that I don't work and that we are so young and we are having our 3rd child!! But we are happy to share that family is important to us and that is why we have chosen to live this way.
Although I still get nervous telling people I am going to have another baby I rejoice in the blessing of being a mother and my knowledge of the importance of family! I try really hard not to judge others and their choices about their family and hope to be supported in mine. I'm blessed to have such supportive family and friends. They might not do it our way but they respect our decision and for that I am grateful!
My life is crazy and most days if people could watch us they would question my decision on being a mother again but that is why we have a Savior! He helps me change and be better! I am eternally grateful for him and I am a better mother because of him!
This post was long and personal but I wanted to express my feelings and explain why:
BECAUSE FAMILY IS IMPORTANT TO ME!










































